I’ve always been told, ever since I was a youngster, that I was like my Grandpa because of my work ethic. At school I was always conscientious and a hard worker which helped as when I fell into the teenage I can’t be bothered stage in sixth form as teachers would let me get away from it. I got pretty good grades in my GCSE and A Level exams but I was never happy with what I achieved.
When it came to leaving school everyone else was heading to uni so I did the same but the lure of earning money meant that I worked 4-5 days a week and was in uni the other 2 days. It’s hard once you start earning money to take a step back and stop doing it. This was aided by the fact that I lived at home during university so I didn’t take out maintenance loans so I needed to work for transport and book costs (or this is what I told myself!)
Since then my workaholic nature has gone from a bit crazy to full out I don’t even feel I have time to sleep crazy. Most people, especially those who blog or freelance on top of a full time job, will know the feeling of being stupidly crazy but sometimes I do sit down and feel the need to tell myself to slow down.
I currently work full time as an SEO and PPC marketing assistant where I also work as a freelance copywriter in my spare time. Generally i’ll complete 5-8 articles a week for various projects but regularly I’ll take on a lot more than this. But it doesn’t stop there, I edit a large music website called Mosh/ Hit The Floor which includes trawling through 100+ emails a day, allocating out reviews/ news to my team, proof-reading and posting everything written, applying for live shows/ festivals and going to live shows myself to review or take photos.
And of course we have my blog, this space that I created because I wanted to throw more work at myself. It’s nice to have a creative space where genre isn’t defined and I have complete creative control over everything that I write about. Bloggers out there will know the feelings of wanting everything to be perfect: creating the best images possible, scheduling your social media, reading others blogs, promoting your own content, optimizing your blog and more. It isn’t just a case of writing a few words down and clicking publish, if only it was that simple.
Sometimes I look at my massive to-do list reminding me of everything that I need to do and think why do I need to do some of this, why am I taking on this work and what am I getting from it?! But it’s a vicious cycle and one which sometimes I love (when the payments come through from my freelance work or I get to attend an amazing show/ festival) and sometimes I loathe. Lunchtimes are taken up with 5 minutes of lunch and 55 minutes of work and evenings spent in consist of the TV on in the background while I work.
I know that I need to slow down and have more me time but it can be hard when you’re a full blown workaholic. Sometimes I think about just stopping everything other than my full time job for even just a week or two but then the idea passes.